Tammy, I would recommend the Ruger LCP II .380 : -- budsgunshop.com/product_info.php/products_id/22617/ruger+lcp+ii+380acp

Please go to a local range and ask for help. They may have rentals that you can try or be able to put you in touch with someone who can guide and help you in the proper selection and use of a firearm

If your area doesn't have a range you can rent at like my area. See if you have any friends, family or co workers that would let you try there's out. Above all else whatever you choose I would recommend get professional training being you've never owned one before. Look up NRA classes near you cause local laws differ big time.

If you can go to a local gun range. Talk to the range master. The range master should be able to help you see which guns fit your hands. Rent and shoot them. Pick the one you like best.